The Ole' House

Last week on Thursday we get a call inviting us to come down to the office and sign papers on the house. So Friday we drive down and in 10 minutes we sign the papers to sell the old house. It was a bittersweet moment. Yes we were sad to have lost the home but also glad that through the hard work of your real estate agent Greg Askins, sold the home before it went to foreclosure. The family that has bought it is very nice and they so deserve it! I got to meet them the other day as I went over to look at the pool equipment and get running again. Now I don't have that issue to worry about. Even though we are home-less, at least we are not homeless.

Even though the sell of the house was good, this whole week has been a struggle for me. I consider myself to have pretty good faith in all things but it has not been there this past week. My faith in church, family, and even in marriage has been severely rocked. I haven't felt this low since I had the problems with my dad. Nothing seems fair or right. I am sure that not being able to find a job has had a hand in bringing me down to this level. It is not fair for someone to say that I am over qualified and not hire me. Hire me and then we will decide if I am too over qualified. I just need something. But on the home front, even when I am doing stuff at home it just doesn't seem to be enough. And so when it comes time for me to have help with things it is like I cant get any help. It is all one sided. No watching or covering for one another, arguing to prove nothing, and not wanting to do more than what is required or doing ones own share. I cant even go to the movies with out someone saying that is not a good idea. Do I feel trapped? You bet I do! And the sad thing is there is nothing that I can do about it. All I can do is put my feelings in the backseat or on the shelf and just let things happen. It doesn't do any good any more to try and talk it out. I will try and have a more positive outlook on life and be on my best behavior, but also expect that I shouldn't have to do it alone. Here is to a new week!

New ward, home sale and stuff

Alot has happened since Fathers Day and some of it has been great, some has been ok and the other stuff, well, it just sucks. We did go through a ward split and so now we have a new bishop and with that I have been released from being the second councilor in the young mens presidency. I havent been called to anything yet but I am sure something is coming my way. I do hope it is a calling in the Primary. I just love kids and the perfectness that they have and share. If I could bottle that up and store it, breath it, drink it, snort it, jk, use it to when I am feeling down, I would have fewer down moments in my life. Thank goodness for kids!!

We have recieved word that the offer on the house has been accepted by the bank and it looks like it is finally going to sell. The poor home has been vandalized so much that I really feel sorry for the new homeowners. They have got some work to do but I hope it is a home that will provide safety and love and comfort for them.

I still have not been able to find work in this ugly economy. There have been a couple of interviews and the parting words have been like " we would like to hire you but you are over-qualified." Another is "you made to much we can't compete." I have made some calls to California where the work is still moving along but they dont have anything just yet. If things go well, maybe by the first of Sept. I will have a position. Commuting is not the way I would like to go but if it is a job I will do it.

We are still working with Trent on his mission. We met with the Stake President today and he told us that Trent is not going on a full time mission. However he can serve a part-time service mission here in the area. I am totally liking this because he can still go to school and serve a misson and feel that he accomplished both. There has been some very serious arguements about a mission and what people feel is the best thing for Trent. The bottom line is that Trent should be the one who decides on what he wants to do. Nobody else should tell him how to live, what to do, or how to do it. Speaking of that boy he turned twenty on Friday so Happy Birthday Trent!. Trent is a very good boy and we as a family will be blessed no matter on what he decides to do with his life. As his dad I am very proud of him and the recognition that he recieves from people that say he is the most kindest young man they have ever met. I am very proud of my kids and what they represent. By no means are we perfect but we try and we try hard to please all those that are around us but some times it just doesnt seem it is enough. My kids will do great things in there lives.

Kelsi and Jolie are now getting ready for school and sad to see the summer go. It has been a fun summer for me even though I didnt work. I have been able to do alot of fun things which normally I would not have been able to do. I did have a part time job in Heber for awhile which I appreciated so much! It helped the funds stretch a little further.

So everyone take care as the summer break winds down and life resumes back to the school schedule. I have enjoyed each and everyone of you as friends in my life this summer. You mean so much to me. Thank You! Take care and c'ya!!

Happy Fathers Day!

Today was filled with tons of emotions and heartache. I know that Fathers Day is suppose to be happy and all but this the second year that I have felt unappreciated on this day. I dont want to bring anyone down with this post but I have to get off my chest before going to bed. Today was just like any other day. The only difference was that I got a candy bar from church and finally at 6:00 this evening I was given two cards and a gift for fathers day. Dont get me wrong, I truely appreciate what I got but it took all day to get to that point. So it was like the day was almost over and people were just remembering about the day.

For the last 9 years I have allways have struggled with this day. Not having a father figure to lift me up or to cheer me on through life toils has taken a toll. I feel that I am going at this all alone and the times that I need a shoulder to lean on, it is not there. What also hurts about today was that My Mom did not even call today to wish me a happy fahers day. So you can all guess how this makes me feel.

Of course since I have not been able to find a job yet, the bank still giving us problems on the old house, the money is starting to run out, and DES still not wanting to help because some sort of paperwork is not turned in, this just piles it up deeper to the point where I am swimming in it with no life preserver to be seen.

So I do want my readers to know that if they are Dads, hope you had the best Fathers Day ever! Cherish it. There is no feeling like the emptiness that I felt this day. As for the rest of the readers, thanks for hanging in there with me and giving me the support and friendship. I know there is hope at the bottom of the hole but I got to find the one hand to hold on to that will help me out of it. Enjoy the summer and life! Bye-Bye

Latest and Greatest

It has been awhile since I have last posted so I thought I better bring everyone up to speed. On the job front, nothing yet as far as a permanent position. I have been able to do some work over the weekend in Heber for a good friend of ours for which I am truely grateful for. It was nice to get out of dodge per say and into the mountains to cool off. The wind did blow pretty fierce and by the end of the day, my contacts felt like sandpaper but the work was well worth it. I think the family had fun too.

Tommorrow I send Kelsi off to the big world of EFY in Provo for a whole week. She just got back from girls camp and now she is off again. I am hoping she learns alot from this trip and has alot of fun and makes new friends. I also hope that the experience will open her eyes a little and allow her to see her full potential. I do love her and will miss her but sometimes she can be a pain!

Got news tonight that the new homebuyers will be closing on Monday or Tuesday this week on the old house. YYEEAAAA!!! I have worried alot about being foreclosed on and my credit being ruined even further. Oh wait, you cant ruin what you dont have. I am so afraid to look at my credit score that deep depression might set in. No, not really but but sad that the fact that after working so hard for something and then having to give it up hurts alot. I wish the new home owners the best in the world and hope they have as much fun in the home as we did.

Trent is getting ever so close with his mission papers. Just a few minor details and then we can send them in. He is excited about going and there is alot of people cheering him on. While he is waiting for his call to come in, he continues like me, looking for a job. It is really hard out there in finding work. I wish the Obama money would open things up a little faster.

Laurie is glad that school is out for the summer and is glad to be taking a break. She doesnt know yet where she will be going next year for work but she hopes it isnt back to the class she just came from.

Jolie is enjoying the summer with her friends at boredom busters, movies, swimming and Kinetic Energy. Her tumbling skills are getting better, but she does need to practice some more.

Along with a new post, I decided to change my background. It may seem childish to have a bunch of toy looking stuff in the background, but I feel that this is what I needed to remember happier times. Oh and by the way, I dont know if I mentioned it yet but I am still looking for a job. Just kidding! I know I have mentioned three times now. lol. Hope everyone has a good week and I will keep you updated on progress.
C,ya!!

Oh the drama....

With the end of school coming quickly, everything sems to be coming at me at full steam. The everlong days of trying to find a job doesn't help either.



Both Kelsi and Jolie had orchestra concerts and they both did a wonderful job! Their talent is getting better each year and I am excited to see how the next year brings more talent and perfection. They are excited for school to end and the summer to begin. Laurie is definately ready for school to end. She has not decided to go back to kindergarden for next year but she does not know wheather she even has a position for next year. The stress of me not having a job is taking its toll on her. I dont blame her but sometimes I feel she is taking it out on me. The comfort level that she is accoustomed to and so desires is just not achievable right now. I hope that she can overcome this. I am doing everything I can to get a job but there is not much out there.



Sometime ago I signed up for science camp as a chaperone for Jolie's class. Camp was held at the Baptist camp outside of payson. It was a total fun and good time! Myself and three other dads were the watchers of ten great young men. I feel we had the best group of boys out of the whole camp. Well behaved and had the best manners. Their parents should be proud.



The other drama is Kelsi and the boyfriend. Things were getting too serious and I felt that they should break up and cool things down. This has not gone over very well but I think it is for the best.



While waiting to land a job, I have been spending alot of time at the local DES office trying to get ACHHS and Food Stamps. The amount of information they require is crazy! Each visit is around four hours long and it doesnt seem to be working yet but hope it does. Trent however has been granted AcCSHHS so this is a good start.



Jolie had a dance recital this last saturday which took all day. A 8:30 am dress rehearsal, a 3:00 and a 6:00 pm pefomances. She did a great job and her tumbling skills are getting better but she does not want to do it any more. So now is the question of do we get her to do it during the summer or do we pick it back up in the fall? We do have a couple of weeks to figure it out.

There is plane tickets to buy, a summer family trip to plan, jobs to look for, cars that need some tlc, a home that someone has tried to vandalize, a home that I am trying to keep from foreclosing, and not enough time to enjoy life. I do hope that things begin fall into place instead of falling apart. Sure could use some good luck about now. Thanks for reading this and sticking through yo the end. If you leave a comment, then you are truely a good friend! Thanks!

Happy Mothers Day

This is a small little wish for you moms out there. Your kindness and love that you all have is far more reaching than the sands of the sea. You make the world go around and make the world a better place for all of us to live in. THANKS to all of you moms out there! Happy Mothers Day!!

A day at the office.

Anybody that has been laid off or is not working right now has experienced this. A full day at the DES office. Oh my gosh! I waited almost four hours to get the application turned in and when my number was called, it only took six minutes to go through it. I guess it was worth the wait because I get to go back tommorrow for the first intereview.

On the job front, I have filled out a few applications and have left many more resumes. But at this time there are only three superintendent positions open in the whole valley. I have applied for them and in hopes that I will hear from them soon.

The day is winding down and there is still a few things I have to get done so I will go for now and wish everyone out there a good evening and a good week!!! Bye-Bye