The Ole' House

Last week on Thursday we get a call inviting us to come down to the office and sign papers on the house. So Friday we drive down and in 10 minutes we sign the papers to sell the old house. It was a bittersweet moment. Yes we were sad to have lost the home but also glad that through the hard work of your real estate agent Greg Askins, sold the home before it went to foreclosure. The family that has bought it is very nice and they so deserve it! I got to meet them the other day as I went over to look at the pool equipment and get running again. Now I don't have that issue to worry about. Even though we are home-less, at least we are not homeless.

Even though the sell of the house was good, this whole week has been a struggle for me. I consider myself to have pretty good faith in all things but it has not been there this past week. My faith in church, family, and even in marriage has been severely rocked. I haven't felt this low since I had the problems with my dad. Nothing seems fair or right. I am sure that not being able to find a job has had a hand in bringing me down to this level. It is not fair for someone to say that I am over qualified and not hire me. Hire me and then we will decide if I am too over qualified. I just need something. But on the home front, even when I am doing stuff at home it just doesn't seem to be enough. And so when it comes time for me to have help with things it is like I cant get any help. It is all one sided. No watching or covering for one another, arguing to prove nothing, and not wanting to do more than what is required or doing ones own share. I cant even go to the movies with out someone saying that is not a good idea. Do I feel trapped? You bet I do! And the sad thing is there is nothing that I can do about it. All I can do is put my feelings in the backseat or on the shelf and just let things happen. It doesn't do any good any more to try and talk it out. I will try and have a more positive outlook on life and be on my best behavior, but also expect that I shouldn't have to do it alone. Here is to a new week!