Work

This last week of work has put me into the lowest point I have ever felt in my life. Found out yesterday that I am being accused of stealing some expensive jewelry from a home patient that I delivered to on Friday. Got a ticket for the new "move over law" in the company truck. Made a special delivery to assemble some medical equipment and mounted two things on the wall because I was told to "please the customer". But this was wrong. Should have not mounted anything to the wall. I was told that I have dyslexia real bad and that I need to figure out how to overcome it and to make things better. And all of this while trying to live on a reduced income because things are slow. With all of this I just cant shake this off. The stealing thing has really gotten under my skin. My career is really hanging in the balance right now. I am just totally sick about all that has happened. Don't know if I can snap out of it. Bye for now, totally depressed.

New Stuff

Since the last post, I have been able to sleep at nights. Thank goodness! I think what caused part of the sleeplessness was the fact that I was being prepared to receive a new calling in my church. I did receive that new calling and it was to the High Priest group in the ward. Along with that I was called to be the Second Assistant to the President. WOW! I am now in a group of men that have more knowledge and wisdom about the gospel that I know what to do with. Especially when it comes to giving lessons. I know nothing compared to them.

But this calling came with a big surprise. When I received the call, the President stood up in front of the group and explained why the change took place for the First Assistant but he could not explain why my name came to him for the Second Assistant position. He said that he went through all of the brethren names, not once, not twice, but many times and my name kept coming to him. The President said that he did not know who I was or what special talents I possessed to have such a strong influence on him but it did. He said that the calling did not come from himself but from the Lord.

This inspired me to try harder in my church responsibilities. To this day, I believe that the calling did come from Heavenly Father. I have felt a purpose and a need that has filled a void in my life that has been in existence for some time. I feel I have been truly blessed by the new calling.

As for the rest of the family, Trent has been working with me off and on doing deliveries. Laurie finished the school year and has started taking classes on-line from BYU. She is hoping to finish her education and complete her degree. Kelsi graduated from high school and from seminary and has got a job working at Golfland as a cashier. She has also applied at Pima Medical institute and has started her Pharmacy Technician degree. So proud of her! Jolie played softball during the spring season and poor thing lost all of her games except one. The one game that her team won, she was the winning run to win it! It was a rush to home plate and she beat the throw home! Jolie has had fun this summer hanging out with friends. She also says that she is ready for school to start.

Work continues for me but it still is uncertain at times if or when I will get a call to make a delivery. It is getting slightly better. The exception for work is the truck that I was using. The engine overheated and it cracked the heads on the engine. So now it sits in the side yard as a huge lawn ornament at the cost of $500.00 a month. Ouch!!!!! Thinking I will have to get a second job to pay for the new engine.

As school starts real soon, I am hoping that I can find the time to have a little fun. All work and no play makes Richard a dull boy! ha ha! Until next time, you all be safe out there!

Sleepless in Mesa

I don't get where this is coming from but why can't I sleep at nights. This is a big question. I used to never EVER have a problem sleeping but now my sleep schedule is just goofied up. Could it be the stress of life? Money? Relationships? I think I need a shrink! I do have to admit that I just spent 15 hours on the road and not ready to sleep yet but just cant get sleepy. I know what I need! A big turkey sandwich and a glass of milk! I need to update everyone on what has been gong on but I will try later when I have had some time to sort thoughts. Good night and sleep tight!

Where has the time gone

Well since my last post, things have been flying by. My two daughters had birthdays, and I had a birthday. Finally got all of my CDL stuff finished and now I have been busy busy with work and that is great! Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas have all come and gone. The time is just flying by! As the new year has begun, I am hoping that this is the year that we finally get ourselves out of the hole. After being laid off, things were tough! Anyway it all seems to be coming together!

I of course have not had to go through this alone. I have a great family and wonderful kids! They are always surprising me with things that keep me on my toes. With all of the gloom of the economy and people losing jobs homes and cars, I have been blessed with family and friends to help cushion the bumpy ride. I have found myself wanting and wishing that I had all of the finer things in life but all that did was depress me because it seemes so out of reach. I have learned that being happy with what I have is the best solution for now. The cars may be rickety but they are paid for and they work.

My sister's husband had two severe heart attacks this last month and now he is in Hospipce care. He sleeps all the time and does not acknowledge anyone in the room. I feel so sad for my sister because she is losing the one that she loves and has to become a single parent to four kids. She is the one that I am praying for because she will not have it easy. My Mother is another one that I am praying for also. Mom had a mini stroke last year and it has affected her vision so she is not allowed to drive or be able to work. She can see ok enough to get around the house so this makes her feel independent. Mom says she is in good spirits but wishes that all of her kids are doing well.

Learned last night that Dad had to be wisked away in a ambulance to a hospital somewhere we dont know. This was on Weds. night last week. We havent heard why he had to go or if he is even ok. The jail system doesnt let us know of these things. Hope he is ok.

There was another thing that has hit me hard this last year was that I cant please everyone. Even people I dont know seem to have a comment on how I do things. It hit me too the point that I feel like I cant open myself up too much for people for the fear of being judged. I guess I will eventually get over this one too, but for now it weighs on me.

But hey, it is a new year and I hope and wish that all goes well for friends and families. May the new year bring you joy and happiness!! SeeYa!!

Happy Birthday Trent!

I am a little late in writing this but I do want to wish "my boy" a happy birthday. Trent has turned the big 21 and now is an adult. I cant believe that I have a kid that old. I still remember when he was just a baby. How time flies. LOL. I am glad that Trent is part of our family and that he strives real hard to make everyone happy. He has set as a goal to take 14 hours in college this semester and I think he can do this. He is a smart man and has alot of goals.

We have had fun teasing him and he just takes it and gives it right back. His greatest love right now is his ex-box. I do hope that girls will come into the picture but I wont rush that right now. Anyway, Trent Happy Birthday we I love you bunches!!

Special Blessings

This whole summer has been quite the challenge. Trent lost his unemployment benefits in May and Laurie is off from school for the summer which made making ends meet alot more difficult. Then you throw in a few car problems and a trip to Utah and now it feels like I can never pull out of it. It feels like a nose dive straight to the ground. Well I almost crashed and burned this week. I have tried so hard to keep it together all summer and then it caught up with me. This last week I looked at my bank account and we were already broke and out of money. Payday was still five days away. I do have some money put away in a IRA account but I need to keep that in case of a true emergency. Anyway I thought I was done for. An idea was that I could get a pay advance from my boss to help carry me through. My boss is a good man and I have come to appreciate him very much. He has given me a chance for work when he didn't have to. He has been one of those special blessings.

The other blessing came this way. As I said I was going to ask him for an advance. I went to his home and gave him my paperwork and was just getting ready to ask when he said, "guess what my a/c went out in my house." I thought that was bad because I know how expensive it is to repair them. Then my boss said that both of his a/c units froze up. Oh my gosh! How can this be happening! When things go down hill, they go down hill!! After hearing that I felt so bad for him that I thought I cant ask him for an advance, he needs the money to pay for the a/c repairs.

Driving home I was almost in tears. I felt absolutely whipped! I was thinking what am I going to do now. I thought for a minute and said a little prayer and ask the Lord for a little help. We only needed like $250.00 dollars to make to Thursday. I got home and went to the mailbox and found my second special blessing. Inside was a check from Trent's unemployment benefits for $256.00! WOW! What a relief! With that check I can make to Thursday and then payday. Soon Laurie will be going back to work and along with Trent's work money I think we can get back on our feet. I know that this is a start but it brings hope. I need that hope so much right now so that I can make to the next day and the next. I know that there is some big struggles ahead of me and with the Lords help I can work through them. I do know that the Lord is there helping me and supporting me the best that He can. Otherwise I would have lost it long ago.

For those of you reading, don't give up hope. It does come along when you least expect it. Until next time, keep smiling!

Happy Fathers Day!

I want to wish all Fathers out there a great and Happy Fathers Day!

As I sit and ponder about this Fathers Day, it makes me wonder how well of a father I have been. As my kids get older I wonder if I have done enough to teach them for when they become adults. It is so much harder these days for kids growing up. The competition for better grades, getting into college, finding jobs, is so much harder, did I do enough. Did I show them through example that if something was to go wrong, would they have enough faith to call upon the Lord for help and guidance, or would they just give up because it was the easier thing to do. As I have become older, my own father was not there to help and teach me on ways to do better. I have had to learn this on my own. I have had some great people in my life that have given me guidance and have shown me the way to becoming a good father. These people I have appreciated very much. It is so hard to go through this life by yourself. That is why I have such a huge doubt that I wonder if I have done enough.

As time goes on and the kids begin to live there own lives, this will tell whether or not I have done my job as a father was complete. I hope I have done enough. I am glad to be a Father and a dad. It has brought me much happiness. The love that I feel from being a dad is like the biggest, warmest feeling ever! It just makes me sad to see that as they get older, I will not be able to feel such feelings as often. I hope that all dads can experience that warm feeling of being a dad. Bye for now!