It has been a bummer kind of week. Several events have occured in my parents family that has left me wondering if I still claimed as one of there own. It starts out that I get a call from my mother sharing with me the birth of a boy to my brother and his wife. I am excited for them and happy for them. the problem that I am faced with is that my brother still has not called me to share with me the great news. In fact two years ago with news of their last baby, I was told that I was not permitted to participate in the baby blessing. Well, I feel that this is going to be a repeat of the same thing. Being told that I am not allowed to participate is looming over my head like some big black cloud ready to dump whatever on my head.
My father as some of my closest friends know is in a strange place. Another phone call from my mother informs me that dad is not doing well and was found passed out on the floor for the second time in a week. His blood sugar levels so low that it took three people to help him eat something. The scary part is that the next time he might not be so lucky. I do worry for him.
MY bil and his wife were over along with us at lauries parents house. It was a get together to just have a get together. The conversation came up their oldest daughter is going to Austria to study some composer that was from there. Another bil and his wife were there also at the dinner table. As the conversation went, the first bil stated that the school is looking for tax deductible donations to help in funding the trip. It was asked to the parents in law, and the second bil. I was not asked to participate or to help with this. A big SLAP to my pride!!! As most of you know, I will help anyone in need. And not to be asked hurt alot.
I want to apoliogize to those who read this and find it depressing. I am truly sorry if it distracts from the hapiness that you are having in your lives. It feels that i am not important enough to warrant or share in other peoples happiness or am I to blame for what people are going through that is making there lives miserable. Feeling really down and miserable.
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It's NOT your fault that you are surrounded by red-neck, white trash, hicks, stupid jerks, thoughtless twits, arrogant turds, mean spirited goobers or whatever you may feel like calling the relatives in your life. It's like the saying I was telling Kate and Jolie the other day- only tweaked! You can pick your friends and you can pick your nose, but you can't pick your friends nose and you CAN'T pick your relatives. So brush off their rudeness and look at your wife and kids. They are pretty great. In fact, I like them a lot. So, you can count all the ways that you are SO much better off than them and forget about it all!
Sorry it is so long, but sometimes I just like to rant!
I am so sorry! Why is it we ache for those relationships that are the worst to us. I ache for a horrible, dead father, and in-laws who could care less about me, but never appreciate those four great kids who love me unconditionally ever enough. You are totally great so just blow off if you can those you don't appreciate you.
Thanks for the friendship and support!!!! I really can count on you guys and know that you have as they say have my back.
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